freeeeewriiiiiiite

I've become ridiculously behind in my blogging, i know. im working on it though and im determined to change this week.

so i just finished writing up a personal assessment for my book of mormon class and its put me in this super spiritual mood. haha well not maybe not super, but now im listening to an e.f.y cd, so it feels like its sunday, though its monday! yay no school! i dont usually work either, but i volunteered to come in tonight from 5-9pm, mostly because i figured so many people would be out of town that we wouldnt have FHE or anything, and we totally do tonight. im kinda sad, but.. heck im getting holiday pay, and i need all the hours i can get. so im not completely crushed.
i think this past week is when it offically realized that living out here IS like a big youth conference or something. i was a friends apartment late friday night and we were talking about what movie to watch, and ended getting on the topic of what would be appropriate and it traveled to just standards in general (ie, if you consider its sunday at 12am, or is it when you go to bed/ when the sunrises? -to justify when its too late to go to the store or something-) it was really funny and made me feel very good and secure, which is a feeling ive been looking for since i moved out here. it was just being around people i barely knew and feeling like i was safe in being with them. ive been hanging out with my new friends all this weekend, and it feels like its been one very long day. hehe or like a few at EFY.
i went to EFY once in my junior/ senior year and it was fantastic. i signed up to go the following year, but i later learned the week id be there would be the week i was to graduate high school, so i had to withdraw. i was pretty sad, especially when i wasnt even allowed to walk the line at my graduation (so i didnt really offically graduated until i got my diploma.. which was just a few months ago. eugh, im SO glad im outta high school.)
man. im just in such a good, inspired mood. hopefully i can get all my homework finished up today so im not scrabbling to get it together tomorrow before school. i really like going to school and even doing the work most of the time; it was only home life that put a damper on it. my parents seperated in my freshman year of highschool, and high school just seemed horrible because of all the dang drama. now its just work that puts a damper on school. i hate work sometimes and it gets me all depressive, sometimes to the point where i just give up everything and sleep for a few days. i feel a lot better about it right now. hopefully i stay in this upbeat mood all summer :)